Wednesday, November 29, 2006


Well I was reading Eu Gene's blog and to comment I needed a vox account therefore I got one, haha. I decided to test it out and it has a wonderful interface for posting an entry. I had nothing much to do therefore I blogged there too, :P. So that blog will be about technological stuff. Basically about stuff and games, so check it out my Review Smeview :P

Back to the title, it is a wonderful song sung by Chris Tomlin, the lyrics are:

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

This song has a wonderful tune, it's so meaningful and it cry outs the praises that we all have for God. He is definitely an Amazing God with a capital A.

Sunday, November 26, 2006


I often feel inferior when I'm in college or in CG. I'm always surrounded by intelligent people, friends of mine who have achieved much even though at a young age. When I look at them, I would think what I have achieved, my consistent answer is nothing. Even if some of my friends never achieved anything they have the urge to at least try something. That something could be something big one day. I love how my friends are, cause they've tried, and I just sit around doing nothing. Like Ronn and Eu Gene taking part in the HSBC entrepreneur competition, even people that I least expect is taking part, such as Bernard. I feel useless when I am around them. Then there is CG where two of my members who are also ex-apiitians. They have done so well, one of them is my cg leader and the other is best student of the year 2005.

Will I be able to do something as well? I'm not sure, I really want to but I just don't have what it takes to achieve something. I wanted my website to work, I did my best but there is still nothing that is done. I sometimes feel pathetic at myself for I could do more but I did not. I told myself to change and today I will do it. To do far more I could, far beyond my ability and I know all that will come with determination, hard work and passion. I will never think negative again for it brings down a person, subconsciously it weakens the human in mind, body and soul.

Does life mean more when you have achieved something? Maybe it does for certain people, some achieved so much that it is nothing special anymore. Some people need achievements to prove their existence, their talents. To be acknowledged so that the whole world would know who you are. I want to achieve things, things that God is proud of, cause what God sees in me is so much more important. But still I cant deny the fact that I too want people to acknowledge my talents, my gifts (if I do have it).

I once had a conversation telling a friend of mine how smart he is and how good he did in many areas of life. He told me that he himself feels that others around us do so much better than him too. He pointed out that we all look at others and feel the same way. You think I'm good and vice versa. It comforted me because we are all the same yet special in our own way. God created human the way He intended in the 1st place. So if you feel that you are dumb and inferior when you look at others, others look at you and think the same too.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

The Merry-go-Round of Life

Round and round it goes, when will it stop nobody knows...........but I want to know. These few days I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round, spinning and spinning non-stop. I'm on it and I don't know when it will stop, I just want it to stop.

I'm just stuck on that ride, I really want to stop it, the spinning, spinning back to the same place in circles over and over again. I'm getting tired, dizzy from all of it. I wish I could just halt it now. Everytime it seems like the ride is going to stop, it starts again. It slows down towards the end and suddenly it's spinning and again. I wanna get down, I wanna stand firm on my feet.

Slowly, I get down from the pony I'm on. I walk to the edge of the ride, as I was about to jump down, a hand held me back and the ride stopped. I didn't get hurt from the ride and I got out unexpectedly. I look at the person who held onto me. What a wonderful person is He. He protected me from getting hurt. Whenever I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round and about to jump, well He was there. I finally know that I can only depend on him and him alone.

My ride is slowing down, someday it will stop and I will get down and stand firm on my feet and next to me , My God :D

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Reflecting my holidays

Time flies, 2 months just whisk pass me and tmr I'm back in college for my orientation. My final year of studying has arrived, it's exciting, it's a bit scary too, it's what I've been waiting for? Well I don't know what's in for my final year except the part of having a final year project.

So here I sit looking back at what I did for the holidays. So I had a list of what I want to achieve:
1. Finish up my java 2 book lessons
2. Finish up my C++ lessons
3. Read up on books which I haven't finish
4. Think of a FYP title
5. Change my bad attitude
6. Get closer to God
7. Start and complete my ecology website
8. Learn yoga from mom
9. Finish reading self-help books

All above are what I planned for my holidays, but I only succeeded in item no. 4,5,6 and half of 7. Wow!! I still wasted lots of time doing things that I didn't quite remember. I think most of the time I am sleeping, chatting, watching shows/anime/dvd, and reading the Holy Bible. The most useful thing I did was seeking God constantly. I feel proud of it but I also feel disappointed at myself for not achieving the rest. It tells how well I manage my time, when there is too much time I can't manage it well, when there is too little time I also can't manage it well. It's time to learn time management, but being to organised makes life less interesting :p.

I love challenges that come my way. I take it on, I try my best and well He is guiding me :D. Lately I have been thinking a lot bout my final year and all. I have a good feeling about it, I'm not worried or scared, it's definitely the next challenge in my life but I go through it, I just know somehow, can't really explain that feeling of assurance.

Anyway, the ecophesto website will be up but delayed. I will get it done even if I have to do everything myself. It's something that must be done because it's my passion and a promise that I would get it done

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

A little sleep, a little slumber

I finally got up at 7:30 am, was trying for 7:00 am, but I laze on my bed for half an hour, what a waste of time.
Proverbs 6:9-11
How long will you lie there, you sluggard?
When will you get up from your sleep?
A little sleep, a little slumber,
a little folding of the hands to rest-,
and poverty will come on you like a bandit,
and scarcity like an armed man.

While I was lying in bed this verse hit me hard. My wonderful CG leader made us memorise this and it was very useful indeed. It reminded me that I have been spending too much time with the bed during this holiday and it is time to get up. So I woke up and did my devotion and God sent me another message to tell me not to waste time. The message was to live life to the fullest for Christ. That is something that I want to achieve each and every day. To stay in bed is wasting time whilst I can do things which are more useful.

This whole week I'm gonna discipline myself to wake up early every morning, it may seem that there is nothing to do but actually there is plenty of things you can do. Surfing the net to gain knowledge is good. Playing some sudoku to keep your brain moving all the time. A little sleep and a little slumber means laziness, poverty can be described in many ways, it can represent your knowledge, your fortune, your attitude. You can be poor in many ways and it doesn't only apply to finances or your wealth. It can also be you are poor in knowledge, poor in attitude where you have a bad attitude.

So my fellow friends, it is time to spend less on bed and more on working and doing things that are meaningful, else poverty will come to you like the Word of God in the Holy Bible. Wake up from your slumber and enjoy the fresh air that every morning has to offer!!

Tuesday, November 7, 2006

What is real love?

This is something that I would love to share with those who are searching for love. One of the needs of humans is LOVE. As humans we can never survive without love, it is what everyone wants and needs to live on with their life. I have come to realise that people without love are often depressed and might even try to end their life.

Love comes from many places such as your family, your friends, your spouse, your lover. workplace and all that you can think of. But some of those "love" might not be real. Fake one or artificial one too. Whatever that I'm about to write is not from me but from the bible itself.

Marks of real love:
1. Suffers long
2. Is kind
3. Does not envy
4. Does not parade itself
5. Is not puffed up
6. Does not behave rudely
7. Does not seek its own
8. Is not provoked
9. Thinks no evil
10. Does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth
11. Bears all things
12. Believes all things
13. Hopes all things
14. Endures all things

All from 1 Corinthians 13:4-7. After reading all these, the first I thought of is our parents and Jesus. How about our friends? Well some will manage to love you like that but some would not be able to. But ask yourself? Can you love your friends that way? We should all try and learn to love everyone around us like that, even our enemies.

The person I know who can love me this way is Jesus and my God. So if you are still searching for love, it's just right around the corner, beside you, He is waiting for you to accept His love for you. The love that was around at the past, present and the future.

Sunday, November 5, 2006

My 21st birthday!!

Woah!! I'm 21 and it doesn't make any difference, my dad still treat me as his little girl :P. Anyway I had a dinner party and I think everyone enjoyed the food :D. It was a good party, everyone had fun. We played two games of Mafia, it was funny. One thing that I didn't like was :p 7.30 became 8++ where people start to come, LOL. Next time must say earlier.

Thursday, November 2, 2006

Life is like a boat

A small hut, a shelter ,a home, a secured place. Looking outside you see the clear blue sea, white sandy beach, the reflection of the sea shines in your eyes. Pop a thought comes into your head, a wonderful day to ride a boat and just read in the middle of the sea.

Out you go, out of that beautiful comfy hut. Across that sandy beach, into a boat (what boat is according your own imagination). So out you go, sailing that beautiful sea. The sea is so calm that reading a book doesn't give you a headache from all the tiny waves. Just calm, no waves. You see fishes swimming , you see the beautiful coral.

Sitting there in your boat, you enjoy the wonderful breeze. What a wonderful life you have. Then the sky darkens, waves start to form. Your boat starts to rock. You're afraid, you wanna be back at your hut.

So do we all start our lives like this? Yes, in the start you are protected in your hut which represents your home. Our parents have always tried to protect from this world, since we were young up until now. When the story states that you are on the boat, those are our teenage years, probably age 16 to whatever age you are now. Our lives start to have a bit of drama, a bit of problems (major or small), it's rocking your life. No more smooth sails. So how do i relate life and boat? I'm considering the part of our teenage years till now. So firstly we have smooth sailing, studying in high school, what major problems can you get? I doubt those are major at all.

So from there we enter college/ university, things might shake a bit, you meet new people, socializing starts to complicate, relationships come, backstabbing comes in group projects perhaps. So a boat similar to our lives will rock, will be stable at times. Life is full of drama, we may never seem to realise it. We often dream of having lives like those in the movies/tv series.

Somehow I lost track of what I wanted to write :P. Anyway I think no matter how life changes, stable or unstable, there is someone to keep you calm in these matters. Can you guess who? Knowing me it will be God of course :P. Currently I'm having a bit of a matter, deciding what to do for my FYP (final year project). I'm stuck in between two ideas which came to me from lots of prayers. Somehow I think one path was open for me by God. I don't know whether He is telling me to take that road or the other. Both road seems interesting, but both hard at the same time.

I'm so frustated on what to do now, 3 more week to college starts!!
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